Regression in adolescence

I recall myself as a sensitive, sentimental, moody, romantic person, when I was not pursuing any intellectually stimulating project. I have also developed a highly motivated, hard core rationalist, realistic, organized, self-disciplined researcher, having my own mission.

An emotional need to look lovely, see the world as beautiful place to live, have company of good hearted people, learn and grow and enjoy company of smart people from variety of fields was all about the 'romantic me'.

I had tough time managing both extremes of my personality, especially, handling my relationships with my family members and close friends. I recall myself being blind unrealistic, irrational, highly emotional while looking at my conflicts with these significant people in my life. I use to be either too distant, dry and alone or attached expecting justice and civil behavior from my near and dear ones.

In this image, I have drawn myself relaxing and day-dreaming on a hammock, keeping my hair loose, gazing towards sky (deep pink) and twinkling stars, hoping to find peace and happiness and harmony, while living with my close ones.