Taking everything out

Initially I was pretty uncomfortable while talking about myself. I had lot of defenses while opening out. I could easily tell, what did I want, which areas I needed to work.

Once I started trusting my therapist, I just couldn't stop myself. I was talking, crying, shouting, and complaining about the world with whole of my being.

I wrote pre and post session notes, painted pictures. I was eating, drinking, sleeping and, dreaming therapy for two years (150 sessions).

In this image, I have drawn roots and main stem of a tree. The roots are absorbing and pumping underground water (red is anger, blue is sadness, black is depression, gray is hopelessness) . Above the ground level, I had inserted a nozzle in one of the water canals and was draining that water in every session. I used to read and re-read and think a lot on what I said, expressed and listened during therapy (small mountains of various sizes, shapes and colors). The overall background color is light blue expressing my need of being away from all sorts of excitements, fun, entertainments, unnecessary socialization.