Success of therapy

Even though I was still regressed subconsciously (small body), and had memories of being charred while bringing out all suppressed anger inside me, I could feel lot of weight being lifted from my shoulders making me feel lighter.

I used to watch eagles and swans and geese and envy them for their free flying ability.
I could see light beyond the tunnel.
Now, I did come out of the gorge into open sunlit area. I could feel lush soft grass beneath my feet.

This is the moment when I for the time felt the "Internal Locus of Control".
Before this event, I was getting aware of multiple loudspeakers of authoritative figures in my life, dictating me to obey them.
I was fed up with this external locus of control on my soul.

During therapeutic self-work, I could categorize my expectations (from myself and from others) into unrealistic and realistic.
I could bring out the courage to forgo few major unrealistic ones and felt the relief for the first time.

My therapist and me used to share satisfaction of our work together.
I used to describe myself as a half-filled glass before therapy, then a bursting earthen pot during anger therapy and now a balloon high in air, a clear blue sky and a healthy realistic view of the world from the height.

I could feel myself changed a lot. I ate well, I slept peacefully, I woke up with a smile on my face, I looked forward to the day's tasks, I kept my agenda within my capacity, I allowed myself to rest well..

I visualized a peacock feather in different color scheme and I found myself being happy inside.
This was a state when I was digesting my blissful being.

I did this painting when I was experiencing high level of creativity in me.
I knew that I was a creative person and had created many ideas and published books before. This time, it was a totally different experience.

This painting I prepared when I felt self-love for the first time, with no trace of any negative emotion for me or about others.
This painting still takes me to those days when I felt like a fountain of happiness and freedom.
I felt brighter and cleaner and open inside.

This painting I made, when I viewed myself happy, stable and, centered in my core.
The inside red is the energy , inspiration , intuition , creativity I have deep inside me.
The middle green zone is the phase of actual creation.
The outer yellow is the feeling of glow on my face